Do I make you nervous?

What Makes You Nervous?

I know what I want. At least, I think I do. When I want something, I get it. If I don’t want something, I say so. I don’t exactly know what I want out of life, but I do know a few things. I know I want that “American dream” - a happy marriage and a kid or two. For this reason, if I’m interested in someone or, heck, if I like them, they usually know it. Recently, this has caused some problem, though. 

A certain someone that I am blessed enough to have met told me a couple times that I made him nervous. I’m not sure why. Is it because I know what I want and I go for it? I don’t want to say I’m hung up on him, but I do enjoy talking and had a great time when we hung out. I want more. He asked for time to figure it out. I am the first to admit that I am VERY impatient when I care about something/someone. I hate waiting. I hating being in limbo. Even more, though, I hate rejection. 

Unfortunately, in this situation, I figure that the more time that passes, the more likely the “figuring out” is going to mean “no” and I absolutely hate this. I want to reset, reload, and move forward. I don’t want to start over. That would mean forgetting what has already happened. I don’t want to forget everything, just parts. 

From there, I’m also left wondering what this means for life in general. Do I make others nervous? Are they just afraid to tell me? I do have a very strong personality. I’m not afraid to say what’s on my mind - regardless of topic. I’m also not one to get pushed around or walked all over. If that makes people nervous to be around me, so be it. I’m not a loose cannon. I can hold my tongue when it’s in the best interest of all involved. I will just make my thoughts known when timing is more appropriate. 

Now I’m left to ponder more....